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I just saw the most beautiful thing. I woke up this morning in East Sussex at my Dads by the sea. I stepped out on to the balcony and saw the sun creep between the clouds creating a ray of magnificent light. It shone down like angels floating on the seabed. Only sprinkling light on one tiny section of the sea. A white line that made the sea sparkle in a hypnotic way. I could have starred for hours. The overwhelming calm sunk deep into my soul and in that moment the world was silent my thoughts stood still. I couldn’t even hear the cars passing by. My heart was filled with love and gratitude for all of nature.  I was being, totally present. These are the simple moments that so many let pass by. Being present in life and absorbing each ray of light into your soul, or feeling the earth on the ground under your feet, or tasting each droplet coffee. These are the easiest ways to be in the moment, to live and feel in a non- judgmental way. Each day if we could do this we would see the world in better light the little things that bother us would fall away. Try today to be totally present you’ll be pleasantly surprised. It made my morning, Love to all of you x 

For some reason I always see the good in people, whether it be a friend or a stranger or someone I’ve just met. Never do I look to find fault or judge. I seek the goodness that we all have in our hearts and communicate with knowing that each of us is the same, we’re all on this earth for the same reason. Recently In the past few days I was let down and disappointed, even a little hurt. The funny thing is I’ll never show it or tell that person/person’s. I’ll give them love and my advice. I’ll write to them when I feel they need me, I’ll let them know there always in my mind and heart. But never can I tell them how there actions caused me the type of pain that sits quietly in the corner. It doesn’t scream, nor shout, nor ache. It just sits and waits building up silently.

Until there’s that, one day when suddenly out of nothing it arrives. First it is a pain in the chest then it spreads around the torso and then into nothingness. I wondered how to overcome this empty space inside myself that is now like a regular. Within me the void of empty gave me a sign. Enjoy the Space. Sometimes, in order to, be. Be your self, be true, to be in life, not just watching life. We need this ‘space’, space from others, and space from ourselves. Creating that space is not always easy but it allows the noise of the friend’s family’s and world to soften and quiet. The chatter that constantly flows through our minds becomes still and comforting.

I found what helps the most. Is to embrace any emotion you feel and be with it. Don’t fight it. Sit with it let it permeate, dance, run around inside you, until its tired and wears itself out then you feel the empty or numbness. In Buddhism emptiness it is called the Sunyata. I used to hate that feeling but I realized it’s a place where quiet and peace come together in harmony you become one with yourself. Meditating to release emotions or let them flow freely through you is the purest way your heart can tell you how you really feel. Whether it’s about a friend, a lover or a making a decision.

I did it the other day for something important as I needed an answer and it came to me that morning whilst I closed my eyes and became an open vessel, tears rolling off my cheeks My heart spoke to me, for the first time I really listened and my mind stop being in competition to, I didn’t try block it. I finally accepted. Accepting that what happens in life always happens for a reason (which I believe-even when I ignore it). Showed me that no matter what path we take, what emotion someone evoked at that precise moment we were supposed to feel that. Perhaps it showed me something that was bothering me way before I was let down.

 A keynote though, is never to rely on anyone else. At the end of the day you are the ruler of your own universe, we are all connected but we are also on our own journeys. No matter what path you choose, what person you love, however you feel right now, it was written in the stars that way before you realized it and now you get to write the rest.

 Each time I meditate I get closer to my soul and the soul of the earth. I feel so much at times, that when I to go to a quiet space, making space from others I can finally settle and be still and calm.  

I now know that giving out so much love is just a trait I guess will never leave me, no matter how hurt I’ve been. If you can live in love then no matter why the person let you down they’ll know what they did, and for me that’s enough. If they can learn something too and be a better person then my hurt was worth their new findings. If they never know, well that’s my fault for not saying but I like the notion of letting go and moving forward.

Re-energizing the soul with space, with thoughts of empty with new chi. x

Hey all sorry haven’t posted in a while, I have sore left ribs and a mighty ole cough,nothing that some rest and positivity and maybe cough mixture can’t fix.

Determined to stay uber positive about this, I always see people moan and groan and complain when they are ill. Suddenly everyone must feel bad or sorry for them. In my eye that just intensifies the problem, the illness or pain gets larger and the thoughts around it bring it into reality, making you feel worse!

Negative/bad thoughts = more negative low feelings = your reality

Positive happy loving thoughts = more loving happy feelings = your reality

There are lots of books out there that tell you that what you think you become. So by thinking ill thoughts and spreading the I’m so ill vibe  ”feel sorry for me” attitude the universe gives you more of the illness and more sorry feelings. Well I say NO!

I only want good wishes and positive thoughts of well being and love and happiness. So if anyone reads this I’d love you to wish me health and happiness and no mention of being ill :))) And in no time at all I shall be my usual self, can’t wait to go for a run ahhhhh just the thought makes me excited.. And a little tired. Off to rest some more. 

Resting I’m also getting used to. I never used to see much need to sleep, But our bodies really do need lots of rest and Water.

Love you all and I wish you all health and happiness and a great start to the New Year x